A Post I Don't Want To Write
Our 19-year-old adopted daughter left home. (I insert the word "adopted", not as an excuse, disclaimer or explanation, but as information that adds to the complexity of her leaving. She was adopted by us at the age of 7.)
She ran away from home to be more excruciatingly honest.
We know where she is, thanks to living in a small town where it is fairly difficult to live with much anonymity, but we haven’t spoken to her since last Sunday afternoon. She was given a ride to a nearby town by a friendly (thankfully) farmer. She is staying in a “shelter” that is “safe”, but not as safe as home.
The facts are wearisome and for Christine’s sake I won’t go into them here.
I said I didn’t want to write this post.
Then why did I?
One: I’m asking for prayer for Christine.
Please pray for honesty and truth. Pray for safety and protection. Pray for repentance. She is 19 in years, but not in emotional, intellectual or mental development.
Please pray for Mike and me and others who love her and those who are getting to know her now.
Two: I blog… and though this blog is not a diary of secrets best kept under lock and key, obviously, it does contain honest thoughts, struggles, and joys about living as a “Tulip in the Thicket”. I’ve always loved that word picture as well as the photograph.
Now, it seems to be a strange metaphor in full bloom.
Three: As I thought about the personal content of this post (the exposure) and wondered about keeping quiet about this, I also felt I’d be dishonest in not sharing. So I share, but I will not dwell here. I wrestle with an urge to defend or vindicate myself and an urge to spit out what it is I imagine to be God’s purpose and how He may be working in the situation and I shake my head at my presumptuousness. God’s ways are far above ours! Isaiah 55:9-11
Prudence and Honesty have argued with each other and have come to an understanding.
If this seems to the point, it is. The truth is I’m weary and disheartened, but not without hope…ever.
Psalm 42:11
Romans 5:3-8
Comments
Thank you for encouragement.
This is a sensitive thing in one sense, yet in another sense it is so real that it calls for some transparency. Since this is not the first time she has left and due to the nature of the facts in her leaving, we will not go bring her home this time. It may seem harsh, but it is a conviction we have unless or until the Lord gives more revelation. There is a point when a parent knows what is best for a son or daughter, but if resistance, rebellion and lies skew the son or daughter's truth, no amount of the best intentions will change a heart. Clearly, that is God’s work. Yes, as soon as we knew she left, we got in the car to search and search… The way this played out leads us to believe that the Lord went before her (doesn’t He always go before us?) to safely grant her “success in running away” this time. We have contacted the place she is staying to let them know we know she is there. We have contacted her by letters to let her know we know where she is and that she is welcome home (with resolutions of some serious issues) and welcome to call and write. (Yes, we sent her a stamped envelope.)
Right after I hit "POST COMMENT" on my last comment, I wanted to reach into the screen, pull it out, and smash it. I am so sorry for saying more than, "I'm sorry and will be praying." That much is certain.
You are always on my mind and you know I am praying. I have a special place in my heart for Christine and pray for God's direction to fall on her.
We'll talk soon
Love you so much.
Carolyn
Love ya.
CONGRATULATIONS ON THE HOUSE SELLING. :)
Thank you for your graciousness.
Thank you for praying.
I just love you and of course forgive you and did and do realize your concerns are sincere.
God bless you,
Laurie
God bless you.
Phillipian 4:4-7
4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. 5 Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; 6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7And the peace of God,which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Love you too!
And I am not at the Ashby house any more.I am with my boyfriend now.